Hi there, welcome to Radiohead Space.
It's Dora.
So, picking up where we left off, I had finally learned to hear my inner voice again after that messy breakup.
I was feeling pretty proud of myself for getting quiet and tuning in to my own wisdom.
But then I made a classic mistake.
I turned my healing into a productivity project.
I'm talking spreadsheets, people.
I literally created a color-coded Google Sheet titled, Operation New Me.
With different tabs for meditation streaks, therapy homework completion, journaling prompts, self-help books read,
and something I embarrassly called my emotional growth metrics.
I was treating my broken heart like a software problem that just needed the right optimization strategy.
The wake-up call came and my therapist asked me, Dora, how have you been feeling during your meditation practice?
And I said without missing a beat.
Well, I've meditated 47 days in a row, so I'd say I'm crushing it.
She just looked at me and said, that's not what I asked.
And this is the sneaky thing about our productivity-obsessed culture.
It will try to colonize everything, even our own healing.
We're so conditioned to measure, track,
and optimize that we unconsciously bring that energy into our most sacred practices.
We turn meditation into a streak to maintain, therapy into homework to complete,