2015-03-04
58 分钟When I started developing these symptoms of psychosis, I just started hiding everything.
I didn't want to talk about any of it.
I just wanted it to go away.
And so I started having thoughts of death and suicide.
And I didn't even tell the psychologist I was seeing every two weeks because I was really embarrassed and I was really ashamed.
And I really just felt like one day I could wake up and it would all go away.
But it doesn't work that way.
So can you imagine what it would be like to stay awake for three to four days in a row, not because you were trying to, but because you literally were so massively filled with energy in a deeply manic state that you could not shut your eyes and then swinging from there into a violent crash, into a deep, deep depression.
Well this is one of the things that was experienced on a pretty regular basis by todays guest Ross Sabo, who was diagnosed at a pretty young age with bipolar disorder.
And todays conversation gets into not just his dance, his struggle and the way that hes moved into his diagnosis and then his life, but also the general conversation around mental disorder, around all sorts of stress, around the way that our brains work and the way that society and those closest to us often either move into us and help us or completely abandon us.
And how to live in the world when you're different.
So powerful episode.
Powerful and very real conversation.
I'm Jonathan Fields.
This is good life project.
So we're hanging out as always in GlPhQ, aka my living room in the upper west side.
And you're just cruising in.
We were just talking about for the triathlon and some other stuff.
We came together through a mutual friend and somebody who's actually been on GLP in a past life, Aaron weed, aka weed, which people take in various different ways.
But you currently, I mean, you hang out in LA, that's your full time?