Hi, my name is Alyssa Grenfell and I am an ex-Mormon content creator.
That's 32-year-old Alyssa Grenfell on YouTube.
Alyssa was raised as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
I was convinced that there was nowhere as good as the Mormon Church.
And she talks a lot on social media about her life growing up Mormon.
She was baptized at eight.
So many memories of my childhood are in church, something called activity days, mutual.
She went to Brigham Young University, which is affiliated with the church.
And just like lots of the girls at BYU at the time,
I decided it was the right thing for me to serve a mission.
In a 23, Alyssa got married in a Mormon ceremony.
I participated in an ultra-secret ceremony that takes place in a Mormon temple called the Endowment.
In other words, Alyssa was a true believer.
She loved her religion and her community.
But then in 2016, Alyssa started questioning her face.
I've spent so much time in this church.
Maybe I can just keep believing.
Maybe there's something I'll still find.
And she began sharing her story online.
And then after all my doubting, I finally left.