This episode was supported by a grant from the John Templeton Foundation on spreading love through the media.
I played for the national team for 15 years, and I loved playing for this country.
I loved that suiting up in and of itself was a protest and a disruption of the way that we normally experience sport,
right?
getting a gold medal around my neck, and the anthem would play,
and I would have this couple of minutes of just sheer joy,
and I would step off the podium, I would look to my teammate to my right or left,
and I'd say, I want to do that again.
In the pursuit of excellence, in the pursuit of winning,
in the pursuit of gold medals and championships,
that was always my North Star, this idea of extraordinary existence.
And after many championships and after literally winning the FIFA World's Best Player of the Year award in the whole world,
I thought that this was going to be the thing that brought me nirvana or enlightenment.
And I go back into my hotel room that night.
I'm looking in the mirror, hoping to find something different,
hoping to find something worthy, lovable or beloved in some way.
And I just felt the same.
And I was just really afraid that the life that I had spent my whole life up until this point doing and exploring wasn't going to give me the thing that I kind of anticipated.
It wasn't going to give me the truth of myself and the truth of what I think life is about.
Welcome to the Science of Happiness.