2024-07-25
29 分钟I've noticed something about myself in periods of self reflection.
One of the hardest things for me to address is contradictions and inconsistencies in my personality.
And it makes sense why this is so uncomfortable to address.
It's because I feel like our consistency between our beliefs and our actions and our thoughts and our feelings give us a sense of emotional stability.
When we feel consistent, we trust ourselves more, we feel more confident, we feel better about ourselves as human beings.
And when you find a contradiction or an inconsistency, it rattles that piece of our foundation and it causes us to lose trust in ourselves.
It can impact our self esteem.
It's, overall, for the lack of a better term, embarrassing.
There's something really embarrassing about finding an inconsistency in oneself.
An inconsistency that I've found within myself recently is that I am actually afraid to change my mind sometimes.
And this is an inconsistency because prior to this realization, I had always believed that I was malleable, I was flexible, that I was not afraid of changing my mind, because I'm aware of how important it is to change your mind over and over again throughout the course of your life.
And yet I noticed recently that in certain areas of my life, I am embarrassed to change my mind.
There's still a bit of stubbornness left in me that I have yet to address.
But I know for a fact I'm not alone in this.
And many people are afraid to change their mind.
And when I look inward at why I'm afraid to change my mind, I find a few things.
Number one, I'm afraid of seeming like a hypocrite not only to myself, but also to the rest of the world.
There's something really shameful about hypocrisy, and it's something that is almost a pet peeve for me.
Like, I hate hypocrisy.
And I think a lot of times it can be a red flag in people or a red flag in anything, like, even like a company or a brand.