2023-10-23
29 分钟Pushkin.
I feel like college was a real struggle for me.
This is author Jessica Pan.
I always felt like when college kids would go out and party or go to clubs,
I thought we were all secretly waiting to come home and then get our pajamas.
Jessica had many close friends in college.
She couldn't always relate to how outgoing her buddies were.
Her besties seemed to seek out noisy parties and busy dance floors,
but Jessica was much more at home with small gatherings and intimate conversations.
Jessica's friends adored her,
but they couldn't always relate to her preferences and just assumed Jessica would want to go big to celebrate when she turned 22.
They threw me this surprise birthday party.
Friends and family members gathered secretly and waited in Jessica's dark bedroom,
ready to pop out and scream as soon as she got home.
And I walked in, there was like 50 people staring at me, and I burst into tears.
It was my worst nightmare.
That's one of the times I felt very much like,
okay, I am slightly different from my extroverted friends.
But it wasn't just those extroverted friends.
Jessica also felt different from the people she grew up with.