Recently, I've been really struggling with the urge to self sabotage.
Like, I just want to fuck everything up.
And it's so irritating, because when it comes to self sabotage, it's not like we do this on purpose.
I mean, why would we want to self sabotage on purpose?
It's something that almost happens subconsciously.
Like, at least for me, I can fall into a negative mindset, or I don't even want to say negative mindset.
How do I want to put this?
I can fall into a self destructive mindset on accident.
You know, the causes for the self destructive mindset vary, but at times, I can fall into a self destructive mindset on accident, and then it leads me to self destructive behavior.
And none of it is conscious, none of it is an active choice.
It's all sort of happening subconsciously, and that's what makes it so complicated.
I don't think any of us purposely self sabotage, right?
I mean, I think when all of us actively think about it, we all want to succeed.
Why the fuck would we want to self sabotage?
We all want to succeed.
Does anyone want to fail?
No.
You know, I mean, ideally, should we be okay with failure and understand that it's, you know, a part of ultimately succeeding one day?
Of course, sure.
However, do we all want to succeed as soon as possible?