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From the New York Times and WBUR Boston.
This is modern love stories of love, loss and redemption.
Im your host, Meghna Chakrabarty.
What does luck mean to you and does that change depending on your circumstances?
Thats what Joyce Maynard writes about in this weeks essay.
Its read by Jackie Weaver, whos been nominated for Academy Awards for her work in silver Linings playbook and Animal Kingdom.
You can see Jackie this summer in the new series Perpetual Grace Limited on epics.
The room where I'll spend the day if I'm lucky is fluorescent lit, lined with hard plastic chairs, and has a reminder on the wall concerning the importance of hand sanitizer.
Though friends offered to accompany me, I'm here alone.
On the opposite side, a family has gathered, a man in his early sixties, like me, and four young people around the ages of my children.
They're engaged in cheerful sounding small talk about their jobs, the Red Sox.
As for me, I don't feel like talking to anyone.
I arrived a little after 06:00 a.m.
after kissing my husband goodbye before they wheeled him into surgery.
The surgery is expected to take 12 hours, though somewhere around our three the surgeon will have gotten to the place in Jim's abdomen where he can see the tumour, known to us only as an innocuous looking grey area on Jim's ct scans.
Sometimes this turns out to be the moment when the surgeon discovers the tumour is not operable after all, in which case they stitch everything up and say, we tried the tumor in question.