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This is modern love stories of love, loss, and redemption.
I'm your host, Magna Chakrabarti.
Forgiveness its always easier said than done.
Whats even harder is finding a way to relate to someone whos hurt you, to see them as just another imperfect human being.
Benjamin Hurtwig learned this at a difficult time in his life.
Lance Reddick reads his story.
Hes best known as Lieutenant Cedric Daniels in HBOs the wire.
Here's Lance with Benjamin's essay.
In the waiting room of estranged spouses.
I googled counseling and scrolled through pages of possibilities before finally settling on a female psychologist with a kind face.
Later that week, I went to her office wanting to talk about fidelity and broken trust, but somehow ended up talking about sex and guilt.
I cried a lot.
Eight years earlier, when I was 20, I had served in Afghanistan as a machine gunner in a security platoon that accompanied convoys, a six month tour of grinding tedium interspersed with episodes of unpredictable violence and death.
But that's not what drove me to the psychologist's office.
I went because my marriage had fallen apartheid.
My wife had had an affair.
As is often the case in marriage, the infidelity was more a symptom of our trouble than its cause.