2017-11-01
18 分钟Modern.
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From the New York Times and WBUR Boston.
This is modern love stories of love, loss, and redemption.
I'm your host, Magna Chakrabarti.
Breakups have always been bad, but then they got instagram bad.
That's how Sage Cruiser felt, anyway.
Kirsten Vangsness, who stars in the CB's drama Criminal Minds, read Sage's essay cropped out of my own fantasy.
On my computer desktop, I have a folder within a folder that's labeled in a message to myself, do not open.
Big surprise.
I recently opened it.
It's full of adorable pictures of my ex and me that I had erased from every other location.
One drew me in a black and white photo of us from the trip we took to the Oregon coast for his birthday two summers earlier, just after we attended my mother's backyard wedding outside my hometown, Portland, Oregon.
My mouse hovered over the image.
Then I double clicked to enlarge with our elbows in the sand.
We smiled as his hand caressed my left forearm, his dark hair and eyes contrasting with my light features.
My right fist, mostly concealed by my black hoodie sleeve, hid half of my coy white smile.
That picture had been everywhere on Facebook where I'd made it my profile picture in his office, on our living room wall, and on his grandparents coffee table in Iowa.
It was taken about six months into our relationship, during our honeymoon phase, and a lot of people had gushed to us about it, saying things like, that's a perfect picture and you guys are such a beautiful couple.
What they didn't know was how ridiculously hard we had worked to get the shot right.